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Has been killing me..

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_{I walk around
and there's no one there.
I make a sound but it's too loud
so I slow down again.
And my heart starts to hurt.
But I can't make this work.
I just have to trust myself
and make this better again.

And I want to scream.
but I can't make a sound.
Cause I try to keep my mask on
when no one's around..
but when I'm alone.
And the tears start to flow..
I just can't hold it in..
and I reveal myself to the world.

I scream. I cry.
but that doesn't calm the monster that's inside.
I try to talk it out..
but no words are coming out..
And I know
this won't ever change but it hurts the same.

This one's of me.
Trying to get better.
Faking a smile.
Failing Still...

I want to scream.
And I finally made a sound.
It started soft
but ended loud.
The monster's out.
Can you hear me now?}

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It's timeIt's time to bring to light
the problems we tried so hard to hide

It's time to admit to the wrongs
and to remember the rights

and it's time for the regretters
to stop regretting
and for the haters
to stop hating

"It's a dangerous place out there"
they said
but it's only dangerous
because we made it to be

We filled society with ideals
things they need to be
bringing people to their weakest state

And we try
we try to rid of our ways
but not enough
Not enoughIt's time by ~mendystar1

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Come back to meIt hurts when I see a picture of you
because a picture isn't enough
it can't contain your beauty
not an ounce of what you're worth

Videos are better,
they show you living
breathing
laughing
the way you were

the way you stared at me
as you whispered our 'always'
how the quiet
never seemed so loud

how my heart hurt
every time I thought of you
I wish I can paint you,
the way you appear to me
so you can see your beauty
and all you're worth

If only I could bring the stars together
and spell your name
so everyone would know
how much you mean to me

To have you with me for one more day
To hear your voice
see the tears in yourCome back to me by ~mendystar1

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RegretsI sometimes feel like I've picked the wrong path.
Like I should have taken a right
instead of a left
or I should have went forward
instead of back

One by one,
these regrets start piling up.
And keep piling
until I can no longer breathe
no longer see
till all I see
is darkness
with no company of the moon
to shine down on me

I no longer know
how to rid these regrets
deep inside of me
I know only to keep them hidden
deep,
deep,
in a place where no one can reach.

One by one,
these regrets start piling up.
And keep piling
until I can no longer breathe
no longer see,
till all I see
is darkness
with no company of the mooRegrets by ~mendystar1

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I'll take it awayThe horrors that begin to form
it's not something I would ignore
It's hidden in the dark
hidden in you
Hidden somewhere I would never think is true.

Cause you see
we're one in the same
we're all afraid of things
we can't explain
so
let's take this
one step at time
and see where it'll take us
further down the line

I'm fighting a war
that I'll never win
So take me apart
before I turn to shreds

Cause you're knocking me down
and spitting me out
Calling me names
why is this now?

Cause you're afraid
I'll take it away
from you

I can't see my way out
I'm fading out
It's what you're doing to me
I can't even breathe

The cuI'll take it away by ~mendystar1

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Oct 23, 2011 Social networking sites
Sep 30, 2011 Change is good.
Aug 4, 2011 You guys are still with me right?
Jul 7, 2011 It's been a while.
May 7, 2011 Kinda depressed lately
Apr 17, 2011 Challenge & Birthday
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Feb 23, 2011 Thank you so much.
Jan 13, 2011 School
Dec 24, 2010 Merry Christmas everyone!

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Mendy
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Canada

_{► Mendy ★ ◄

Interests Drawing, Graphic Design, Singing, Photography, Filming, Music. Merch person.
Admires Those who work after their dream.
Fandoms Bakuman. Kuroshitsuji. Pandora Hearts. Tsubasa Chronicles. xxxHolics. Kingdom Hearts. v.b.rose. CrossRoads. Wallflower.

TO-DO LIST
➤Black Rock Shooter
➤Drawing of Josh. lol. That would suck. (Started.)
➤Edit 15 poems that I wrote. (in the process)

Don't want it, don't get it. I hope you won't regret it.

Current Residence: In someone's mancave, stealing their guitar.
Favourite cartoon character: Toshiro Hitsugaya, Hatsuharu Sohma, Allen Walker, Sasuke Uchiha, Roxas and lots more.
Personal Quote: "If you have a problem, I find that keeping it a secret makes it so much stronger." - Josh

You'll most likely find me tweeting away on my twitter 24/7.}

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by ~mendystar1, Oct 23, 2011, 1:10:12 PM
Journals / Personal

Mood: Neutral
Listening to: Every Move You Make (104.5 CHUMFM)
Reading: Love So Life - CUTEST MANGA EVERR!
Watching: Captain America

Currently, I have a week off from school so hopefully I have more time to post up some poems. Not going to lie here but.. I haven't written any new poems. I'm so sorry!! I'll try my best this week!! I might not have time because I'm going to go work at my co-op placement. Hopefully I can earn more money and get to go to more concerts. >.<

I have to apply for university soon, and that means... I have to draw more!! I have to submit a portfolio with my application so I need to get inspired.. and soon! I'll probably read my old poems and hopefully cry over some happy memories.

I recently watched Captain America and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. I would never watch Benjamin Button but I did because my school band is playing it. It's really good. It teaches you so many life lessons. I really loved it. Hopefully I can write several poems from the emotions from that movie.

And I created a flickr account to put some of my photos in! I'm still adding photos so it's kinda plain.
Here it is!
[link]
Twitter: [link]
Tumblr: www.mendystar1.tumblr.com
I also have Formspring.
Basically, everything I have will have the same username so if you want to talk to me on those, just message me / tweet me! I'm mostly on twitter though.

And I created a new youtube account because I accidentally deleted it.. but I will not reveal it for family reasons. haha.

Have a wonderful day!

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*basseca Apr 3, 2012

Thanks so much for the

on [link] its very appreciated!

~mendystar1 Apr 3, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

No problem, it was a really good shot! I wish I went. D:

~crazylove46 Jan 13, 2012

woohoo thanks for the

~mendystar1 Jan 13, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

no problem! llamas are awesome!

~crazylove46 Jan 14, 2012

LOL yes, yes they are!

~Ninjinchou Jan 13, 2012

Thanks for the llama ~

~mendystar1 Jan 13, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

No problem! I love giving llamas.
And thank you for the llama.

~crazylove46 Jan 12, 2012

Thanks for the watch!!!

~mendystar1 Jan 13, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

No problem!

~crazylove46 Jan 13, 2012

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