Broken..

There's a monster inside of me.
And I can't get it out.
I know it's there.
Without a doubt.

Even if I say it out loud.
That doesn't mean I care.
I say it joking-ly.
but it doesn't prepare.

This cliff.
This downfall.
Like my insides
are being torn apart.

I told you
Cause I want you to care.
To fix me.
Cause I don't want to do this alone.

I know this is something I said.
But I'm afraid.
I don't want to give it up.
I don't want to lose myself.
I don't want to lose you.

But I can't stop.
I can't.
And I don't want to try.
I'm so tired.

I don't want to do anything anymore.
But you kept at it.
Telling me to be strong.
But I'm not strong.

I'm weak..
I'm..
broken.