Confession

My heart starts to break
from the advice you give
and that's all that takes
for this heart to break
for these tears to start

I want to find the strength
to tell you the things I've been hiding inside
but it's somewhere down deep,
in a place I can no longer reach.

But I want you to understand,
I want to trust you as much as you trust me

I want to have the strength to say the things I've wanted to say.
The strength to tell you everything's going to be okay.
because it is
because it will

I hope one day I can find the strength to say
all the things I've wanted to say

When I say you standing there,
I couldn't help it.
I teared up.
because I didn't know what else to do
because I didn't know what to do
I tried my best to blinked away the tears

It wasn't until you said
to not let the past control your present
that I bawled.
Because that statement is true for me
the past controls my present
because I can't let things go
because I'm scared
I'm so scared of what might happen
what will happen

I hope one day I can find the strength to say
all the things I've wanted to say
I want to trust you
like you trust me

But most of all
I want to trust in myself

And get rid of this darkness
eating away..